Wednesday, May 24, 2006

I've been trying to post for the last day or so, but I look at the picture of my throne and grab that Quilt of Melancholy and just visit you. Makes me feel included, even though I'm a non contributor.
What motivated me to post was a call my husband got this morning. I hear only snippets of his side of the conversation.
Oh, they entered us did they?
7am Saturday?
Yeah if you could do that for me that would be great.
He gets off the phone, finds his coaching file , makes some phone calls, and viola! he has cleared his schedule for the weekend, and the boys are off to a tournament. on the weekend we have set aside to finish planting.
It hits me at a bad time, being melancholy and all, and I take all of his behaviour, and turn it to be all about me.
poor me.

And then I give my head a shake. Ouch, perhaps a little too hard. And i force my self to complete this list.

Hope's Top 10 List
The best things about my husband.
  1. He is a great dad.

hmmmmmmmmmmmm perhaps I'll finish later.




4 comments:

Me, Not You said...

awwww, ((((hope))))

hugs to you, dear friend

Wadical said...

One out of ten...ouch.
Wonder if you'd care to see his "list".

oshee said...

The thought that came to mind as I read this post was: When was the last time you did something with your husband? Just you and him, no kids, no sports, NO golf..etc. Then I thought, well who am I to be asking that? After all I only get to see what you put out there, which is cool because it is your thoughts and this is your space after all. So, I already chastised myself for not minding my own business. Maybe you could go on a date with him soon tho. It might feel really good and help you finish that list. Maybe he needs to know that you deserve him rearranging his schedule a bit for you too.

Tracy said...

(((Hope))) I am so sorry you have been feeling so down.. Know I am thinking of ya, and hopeing you feel emotionally better soon.