Actually, the fridge is bare, I haven't cooked a meal, or accomplished any significant amount of progress is any area of my life this week.
Mired in Melancholy.
It is amazing to me how crappy the world can look when I squint my eyes and furrow my brow.
But enough is enough.
I have meticulously avoided almost everything that may have the slightest chance of bringing a smile to my face.
I'm not sure why I do this.
I haven't even got through chapter 3 of the book I started
"Stumbling towards Happiness" it seems, has turned into
"Push ,pull and drag ,kicking and screaming......... towards happiness."
I am a firm believer in Positive Attitude, I see it work in my life on a daily basis,
yet I consistently ignore the power I have to make my world what I want it to be.
So, I'm ready to shift gears.
Not today, tomorrow.
I need another day to sulk.
- To address last posts comments: Sorry to disappoint W3 and BG with the fact I do not drive a "kick ass" car, just a mere 2002 Camry that thinks it's a Hummer. The photo didn't catch the fact that it was on cruise @ 100 k, thus because I was not using my feet, I felt perfectly comfortable doing some hands free driving as well to take the photo. Besides, I was on gravel, not another car in sight. You are right W3, that (when I'm on my game) I am great at parties. ;)
- one of the things that I don't like about my blog is that two of my biggest life concerns I don't comment on. The day to day job that I do, and the Foster Care / Native Affairs systems which my granddaughter is entrapped. I don't talk about these things because of confidentiality, and a fear that some things I say could be held against me, or be considered a Breach of the Confidentiality Agreements I sign. It feels like I can share only small parts of whats on my mind. Perhaps I will go deep underground in blogdom and let loose. I will call my new blog" Trapped in a quagmire of bureaucracy and mediocrity"
- My weather girl may be smiling now, but theres more snow expected over the weekend
so I will put on
Rose Coloured Glasses.......
I am grateful to have a heated garage.
12 comments:
We even have a possibility of snow this weekend as well. I can't believe it.
I have a major life change going on that I don't talk about either. I will someday, when things look brighter.
Hope, I totally understand the need to brain dump and discuss the situations that happen at work but that may involve "confidential" elements that cannot be included.
I too deal with a monstrosity called the "Health Insurance Portability and Accountability Act" (HIPAA for short) here in the States. It prevents the disclosure of certain types of information like names, addresses, medical conditions etc. So, when telling the story, I usually substitute with enough generalities and aliases to legally circumvent those restrictions.
My fellow 911 blogger, Rebecca at My 5150 World, who works at multiple public safety agencies, does a great job of substituting her agency names with code words and caller names with made up aliases but it doesn't detract from the story and it remains quite interesting and gets both the point across and the load off her chest.
I've often wondered what exactly you do for a living but never wanted to pry. Perhaps you can do something similar to Rebecca and substitute confidential information with "concocted" information. Everyone needs to vent some time.
Smile! Heres a big toothy grin to cheer you up!
W3, if I had an email for you, I'd fill you in on the details of my job.
smiling back at ya
hope,
any ideas on how we can help Jesica kris is also concerned and wants to help ?
Hope, check my profile. My email is available there. Fire away!
Hope---
the thought occurred to me as I was reading this...we need to go find a maze to walk...
We both could use a reset button on our thought processes right now.
omg, no more snow for y'all. It is the middle of April for pete's sake.
Did Mother Nature NOT get the memo that Spring is here?
I also ama firm believer in the positive attitude thingy, sometimes it is easier to have a crappy negative outlook.
Like for example--TODAY! it is cold/rainy/stormy on Earth Day, we had big plans at the Osage Nation for activities and NOW it is not happening.
barngoddess
http://ramblingsfromthereservation.wordpress.com/
oshee, I am in a maze.... I think you mean a labarynth, which is a damn good idea.
Oh Hope, I am feelin' ya! I just got stuck in something (which shows why I posted that post) and I just don't know if it was hormones or what. I feel like I am in a serious rut and I am craving change. But how?
Sending big hugs to you up North!
oops..yes i meant labyrinth, the word just wouldn't come to mind...being stuck in my own maze right now.
at least you spelled it right ;)
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