I need to do something with my rage and as I sit here, tears flow, my body shakes and I can literally feel my blood running through my veins. I have picked up the phone many times this morning, and even got in my car once to drive to confront you face to face... but I cannot trust that I would not lose it and bitch slap an 80 year old woman.
Consider yourself lucky.
Instead I will lay this down, once and for all ,here, and I am done with you.
An open letter to my Mother in Law:
Ever since I married your precious, oldest son, you have not accepted me, for in your mind, I am the reason he left your "church". You ignore the fact that as soon as he left the confines of your home he left the "church". I tried to understand your religion, and the questions I asked were taken as insults. I tried to attend on occasion, but was always met with .... "it's so nice to see you here... too bad you don't come regularly"or, "it breaks my heart to know that your children are not being brought up in the church, we will pray for them"
Throughout the years I have put up with a tremendous amount of crap from your pious daughters, keeping my mouth shut to keep the peace, until finally I didn't care and told them both to shove it. I , of course, was the bad guy. But what do you expect from someone outside of the "church"? I have pasted a smile on at the huge family events, biting my tongue with the better and holier than thou attitude that is prevalent in your extended family gatherings. I didn't even bring up the fact that your "religious prophet", Ms White, is a plagiarist and a fraud.
All because I love my husband.
But today you made my husband cry... and now the gloves are off.
It has been 5 years since the Cree Princess came into our family, and you still can't (won't) pronounce her name properly. You come up with so many excuses not to attend her birthdays, dance recitals etc that the invitations weren't extended this year.
But today is the final straw. You proudly deliver gifts to all your grandchildren and great grand children from your latest trip abroad, and there is nothing for her. My husband brought home the gift for my son and said, "I'll go buy the Cree Princess something so M doesn't know" But my daughter does know that you do not accept her beautiful , chosen child and it has hurt her deeply, and for that I hate you. Seriously hate you.
I want to scream from the roof tops that you are a bigoted ,hateful , mean spirited, passive -aggressive bitch.
My saving grace is that while you may fool the community that holds you in such high regard, you can't fool God.
He knows your heart.